Speaking in the Light – 4-7 ‘My Journey’

Any of my Herald friends out there ever feel like you keep learning the same lessons over and over again? I mean have you settled some truths to be foundational in your brain, but your heart just won’t commit and jump in to join your mind? So you feel like you are moving, but the motion only turns out to be another ride on the merry go round…and Lord how that makes you dizzy!
These recent days have been frustrating for me to say the least because part of me believes that I really am growing and stretching in ways that i never have before, but there is also a huge portion of me that drags it’s feet and won’t cooperate and ends up sabotaging any sustained celebration.
I wrote these words as an expression of my heart…They include lots of questions but they also include that which I know is the right answer. And the answer is not a “what” but a “Who…” and I know the ‘Who” is the Lord…and I also know the key is that faith comes not only by hearing, but also by acting upon what I hear and what I know, even when I don’t know how.
I used to write music to my lyrics…Not sure if I have the melody to this one, but I welcome any of my talented musician friends out there to go for it if you sense you have got a tune for my heart talk.
Sometimes the healing is in the sharing…
My Journey
Words by Pastor Rudy
I’ve been following You for years…
Was it for You? Or just for me?
And my heart is now filled with tears…
I’ve been so blind…why can’t I see?
That Your love can not be earned…
It’s mine only to receive…
And I know that I’ve been burned…
Why can’t I just believe?
I’ve been missing so much for years…
I’ve been so proud… so insecure…
And I’ve battled a ton of fears…
They lock me up…They shut the door…
But Your love is making me real…
And it is calling me to dance…
And it is teaching me how to feel…
And it is making me take the chance…
I am still quite a child at heart…
I need to trust… to let it go…
And I’m willing to make a new start…
I want to live… I want to grow…
And Your love’s the important part…
It’s the music that makes this song…
And I willingly give You my heart…
Cause I know I finally belong.
My journey begins and ends with YOU!